Being a leader is hard X___X

I've been a team leader for almost a week now. And I must say, this shit is hard lol!

Even thou you get to assign yourself less scenes to work on, but it's not because I'm lazy, it's because I have other things to take care off such as helping team members solve their problems, chasing progresses, emailing clients to clarify on stuffs, and the worst of all, I have to work on very hard scenes :(. It's intense, and I couldn't even enjoy some music while working, I had to pay attention to my team members and eavesdrop a lot cuz sometimes my team members are kinda shy to ask when they are in doubt, so I had to take the initiative or else they'll be stuck there forever <_<''

But I was trying to figure out how the heck did me and my x-team members manage to finish 1 chapter within 2 weeks. And then it hit me, the way it worked was, my team leader distributed harder scenes to all the team members while he focuses on the easier ones. Once he's done, he helped the others take down their scenes too. In a way, I think it's very effective. But the bad thing is, you're not giving the newbies a chance to learn.

To be honest, I'd rather things to be that way. Firstly is because, none of my team members are fresh meats, they started off the same time as I did.... well, except for 1 of them who came in a little later, and another who got transfered from the animation department. But if they can't tackle simple scenes fast enough, then there's definitly something wrong there, and it's holding the production line back...

Another reason is because, I feel that if hard scenes were to be pushed onto someone less experienced, it would trigger them, HOPEFULLY, trigger them to seek guidance or assistance, which I really wish my team members will do more often instead of burrowing in their own fox hole.

But of all these tactics. The thing that can bring down the production line is if one of the team member doesn't like the leader, and doesn't give a shit about daily quotas or other team members. For those who are done with their part, they are to step in and help any remaining team members with their scenes, that way it speeds up the process, but sometimes there are team members who take advantage of this "help" thing and would rather slow down and relax, knowing that someone else will pick up their scenes. If all team members were like that, then nothing will be finished <__<'''

I really REALLY hope none of my team members are like that... although I have worked with them on previous episodes as teammates instead of being their leader, I didn't quite get to know their performance... so I'm taking this current episode to understand more about their level of performance.....