Lotsa Changes going on

It's time for an update! Boy it sure has been a long time since I updated my blog.
Anyways, there so much things that I'd like to say, but I'm just lost for words, not too sure how to express them, so I'll try and do it the best I could.

Ever since I started work, I haven't saved a single monies at all..... Just mega spamming.... especially with my new hobby and stuffs like bday presents, events, living expenses and etc. But I'm glad I can stop funding my hobby cuz I think most of my cards are good enough already, and I'm pretty happy with the decks that I have atm. It's time to start saving again from step 1 lol! Gotta try and minimize my spendings xD.

My artwork is still kinda stale, maybe because I haven't been drawing for months lol. But I sure miss drawing, especially when I see wonderful artworks by my favorite artists. I'll definitly start drawing soon or probably when uni starts. For now I kinda have to focus on money making and saving xD. My friend introduced me to an app called "LiveArt". It's an app where you can view videos of other peoples artwork progress. It's really an inspiring app, especially when you see how e pros make their own artworks.

Lately, I feel that hanging out with my friends whenever they are in their couple mode is really awkward. I guess that's what they call third wheeling, or in my case, it's mostly eleventh wheeling, or thirteen, or fifteen..... Thou its still a conversable gathering, but i just feel a little unease whenever I'm around them. It's also hard to share my thoughts or express myself in front of them, or maybe I'm just closing myself up again. But whatever the reason, that is why this blog exists, I can't translate my thoughts properly through speeches, but it's easier for me if I typed it out. A funny way to summarize what I've just said would be, "It feels as if all my friends have the expansion set to their game, and I. Still on the original one...." maybe I should go get an expansion as well, but I prefer the original for now.... Ha ha ha!

Working in a lottery kiosk is prett interesting, but since it's a gambling business, as in you deal with gamblers, it feels sorta like its your fault whenever they lose their money. Fuck that shit thou, they choose to gambled and they should know the risk, plus I, just a worker, I have nothing to do with the higher up decisions nor have the power to pick whatever numbers I want to appear. But lately, I've been hearing some depressing stories.... Mainly about people having cancer, and the deaths of their loved ones..... It's all part of life I suppose, but when you hear about it. It just makes you feel sad, the thought of not being able to see your loved ones ever again.

Anyways, I think I'll leave today's entry at here for now... I'm a little lost for words even though I've much to talk about. So thanks for reading! Sorry for the long post. It is a major update after all. :P